Hating my brother…..

21 Ye have heard that it was said of them of old time, Thou shalt not kill; and whosoever shall kill shall be in danger of the judgment: 22 But I say unto you, That whosoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgment: and whosoever shall say to his brother, Raca, shall be in danger of the council: but whosoever shall say, Thou fool, shall be in danger of hell fire. 23 Therefore if thou bring thy gift to the altar, and there rememberest that thy brother hath ought against thee; 24 Leave there thy gift before the altar, and go thy way; first be reconciled to thy brother, and then come and offer thy gift – Matthew 5:21-16 KJV

Father, you know that sometimes we just simply choose not to get it. We chose not to get it because humanly it hurts when we do. Getting it requires action on my part that I may not want to take. I may not want to take the high road.  Like 2 weeks ago you directed me to contact someone who disappeared from my life. I didn’t know if they were well or not. I did not know how things were going. I just know that for 30 minutes you kept telling me to contact them.  So, I called – no response. I called and ditto. So, I sent them a text.  I don’t know where they live now. So, I am waiting to see if they contact me.  Now, this is not a close friend it is just someone I knew. It took all that I had in me to listen to the Holy Spirit and contact that person.  I just knew something was going on with them.  Now they know how to reach me if they need me. It is not easy following the lead of the Holy Spirit.  Sometimes it bites like the bite of a dog. But you never said living a transformed life was going to be easy either. I did not pray that day until I called that person and tried to reach them.  My prayers Father, would not have made it through I am sure of that. I don’t feel any challenge about this person.  It is always good for me to be shown when a person I may not want to be around might need help; might need me to reach out to them to let them know that I am still available for help.  It is not so easy to reach out because I don’t know what to expect.  Being an introvert is sometimes a curse. But being obedient to the Holy Spirit bring peace.

25 Agree with thine adversary quickly, whiles thou art in the way with him; lest at any time the adversary deliver thee to the judge, and the judge deliver thee to the officer, and thou be cast into prison. 26 Verily I say unto thee, Thou shalt by no means come out thence, till thou hast paid the uttermost farthing.

It costs me nothing – except the lifting of an emotional baggage – to agree with or to talk to someone who has harmed me or who thinks I have harmed them.  Either way – Father I just want to live for you and not for me. I cannot be much of a witness of your love if animosity lives in my heart.  I can speak Christianese all I want. I can post all sorts of things on social media about the richness of Scripture, but when I remain at odd with my brother and sister Father I am not in keeping with your Word. I am not demonstrating the Love of God to all of my neighbors. I cannot offer myself to you for service or worship when my mind is in turmoil and my spirit is blackened by social, emotional, and spiritual unrest.  Father I have learned to leave it at the foot of the cross, but I am so human and at times it does not want to stay there.  Taking the “high road” is not just a thing I say, Father, it must be a way of life 24/7/365.  Being human I am still being transformed by the Holy Spirit and sometimes taking the “high road” is not what I want to do. I smile because when that happens, you are so gracious to me.  You allow me to wallow in “doing it my way” until I return to the foot of the cross and plead for you to release this burden from me.  There is no conflict that you cannot handle Father and I know that when you handle it is well handled.  Keep my spirit open to the urging of the Holy Spirit Father. The gentleness of you is all that I should do, but I do not do it perfectly.  Of course, I know that perfection is a God trait and for me to feign perfection is really sinful.  I am saying that I am as God. So, what I am saying Father, is open my eyes and the eyes of my brothers and sisters to the things that are blocking our worship of you.  Then open our willingness to follow the guidance of the sweet Holy Spirit to “listen and do” what He is telling us to do.  Your word declares that when we have such “hatred” towards our brothers and sisters “we might as well be violating the “thou shalt not kill” commandment physically because we are doing it spiritually.  Following the higher order of the sermon on the mount and being a person who seeks after reconciliation – Godly reconciliation – makes my worship, giving, serving, etc., pleasing in our sight and that is my heart’s desire.   Father when your people sin in this manner open our ears.  Allow us to hear the sweet gentle call of the Holy Spirit to “stay within the light.” For light and darkness cannot dwell together.  You are so forgiving toward us even when we insist that our way is the only way to solve a problem.  You wait patiently for us to learn that our way creates confusion and a mess and that “being you” even to someone who has hurt us is no different from “You loving us – even when we refused to acknowledge you as Lord of our lives!” Thank you for the cross, Father.  Thank you for the substitutionary death of your Son Jesus Christ.  Thank you for your precious Holy Word that directs, corrects, encourages, us to press on.  When we are down it lifts us up. When we are up it gives us a burning desire to worship you even more.  Eventually, it actually teaches us to praise you even in the storms of life and wait for you act on our behalf.  Give us your eyes of love for all people, Father. In the mighty name of Jesus.



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