My recovery testimony

We have all had at least one horrific thing happen to us at some point or another in our lives.  The thing that happened to me occurred right after a tragedy in my life.  It could have happened to you.  Just know that you are not the only one.  Jesus is here to heal you if you will just allow him to.

 “My life seemed normal until…”

My life seemed normal until my grandmother died.  She was my protector as well as my mentor.  When she died my aunt, Mancy left the United Kingdom and went to the United States to spend time with her friend. She was there for an entire year.  Within a week of her departure, a relative began to rape me whenever he worked days instead of nights.  This event was the most emotionally bad experience of my life.  I trusted my family member and looked up to him.  He was a pillar of the small town of Aylesbury where we resided.  The activity did not stop until after my aunt returned home.  We slept in the same room, so he did not have a choice.  I was only fourteen and a half when this first started. I blamed myself because I did not fight him off. I could not tell anyone because I did not want to return to my father and step-mother.  No one would have believed me anyway. I graduated from school at age 16 and left the area as soon as I saved enough money from work for my train fare and a room of my own in London.

Psalm 27:10-14 New International Version (NIV)

10 Though my father and mother forsake me,  the Lord will receive me. 11 Teach me your way, Lord;  lead me in a straight path because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes, for false witnesses rise up against me, spouting malicious accusations. 13 I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. 14 Wait for the Lordbe strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

“I discovered hope and help in Jesus when…”

I found hope and help in Jesus when I started to read literature about his saving grace and his unboundless love.  The research led me to intense Bible study.  I read about the life of the patriarchs of old.  David, Joseph, and Job became my beloved patriarch.  Each of them experienced life events that would have unnerved a faithless person; however, their faith in The Lord was immovable. Paul was my New Testament apostle of choice.  As I studied the lives of these people, their faith, and love for their God, my guilt started to ebb away.  This happened because the Holy Spirit was wrapping me in the love of Jesus as I devoured His holy word.  He looked at my shame and took it away.  He replaced it with joy that was immense.  He replaced my guilt with a love for Him that I did not think that I could have.  His word has been my source of inspiration, correction [especially of my thought processes], and joy.

“I am glad I have a personal relationship with Jesus today because…”

I am delighted I have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ because He saved me from a fate that was worse than death.  More importantly, He forgave me of all of my sins.  I know that every human being who has ever lived has sinned.  But His death on the cross took my punishment for my sins and now I can live a new life with Him as the director of that life.  His forgiveness of my personal sins enabled me to forgive my abuser and his wife who knew I was being abused. His love erased the memory of the worse event in my life.

The Lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and rich in love. The Lord is good to all; he has compassion on all he has made. Psalm 145:8-9 (NIV)

Although it took most of my adult life before I was able to verbalize the abuse, when I did, I could tell others that there is nothing that Jesus cannot erase from your memory banks.  There is no emotional turmoil that Jesus cannot handle. He has become my psychologist, my life coach, my mentor, my teacher, my healer, and my completer.  Why is He my completer?  He is my completer because my life was empty and tortured before I met Him. He gave me the ability to love others simply because they are human beings without expecting anything in return or without any conditions.

I did not get this on my own.  I got it from His unconditional love for me.  It is easy to love Him because He loves me so much.  I can talk to Him about anything at all and know that He will answer my questions.  When I am stressed, He calms my spirit.  When I am concerned, He speaks to me through His word and tells me that I am not alone. In spite of my human failings, Jesus still loves me.  He shows His love for me by reminding me that I am forgiven and that the event in my life does not need to bring me sorrow and pain if I have to share it with others. I know that no matter what life brings my way Jesus will always be there for me.  I know this because his word tells me so:

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:11-13 NIV

May I share how something like this can happen to you?

Do you want healing from a tragedy that has occurred in your life?  If you are not saved–if you have not given your life o Jesus Christ.  If He is not your personal Lord and Savior, that is the first step in the healing process.  Begin by saying this sinner’s prayer  Then contact us we will help you with the next step.

God bless.

The Egg Angels Ministry Team-this blog is a part of that team- is here to serve you in your pain and need.  We will be Jesus to you!

1 Comment (+add yours?)

  1. Ann Smith Warren
    Feb 28, 2015 @ 21:22:47

    Wow EM I never knew how much we are alike and had similar experiences in our past that Jesus has delivered us from. I just don’t know how anyone can go without Jesus is their daily lives!! If Jesus wasn’t in my life I can’t imagine where I would be……I thank Him every day for loving me even though I am so undeserving of His love!! But I am VERY thankful for His love!!! I want everyone to know His love like I do!! His love is like no other!!!


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