Bear with me my good friends. There is a method to my madness. The purpose of all of these graphic descriptions is to explain the next part of this blog. Satan is the ultimate liar. He will take one small grain of truth and use it against you. Because there is just a grain of truth in it, you convince yourself that it could be true. That is when Satan takes the ball and runs with it. He wraps you in the cloak of depression and throws a very heavy blanket of anxiety over the top, just to keep you in the dark. Satan rules the darkness. He cannot survive in the light. So he does everything in his power to KEEP you in the dark. When I was taken out of the workforce, I was in a great deal of pain from the knee injury and a skin/nerve condition that I had had for over 20 years. So for the next 19 months, I was in limbo. Flailing in the dark. I would fight to the top with everything I had in me, only for Satan to come up behind me and knock my legs out from under me. I suffered from the deepest darkest depression imaginable, began having panic attacks (if you have ever suffered from one of those, you have my deepest sympathy! They are HORRIBLE!). I got behind in every one of my bills with no option to pay them. I began selling everything I owned. When we started this blog, we put our faith in the Lord’s promise, that if we would step out in faith, He would take care of all of my needs-
Luke 12:29-32 : And do not seek what you will eat and what you will drink, and do not keep worrying. 30 For all these things the nations of the world eagerly seek; but your Father knows that you need these things. 31 But seek His kingdom, and these things will be added to you. 32 Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has chosen gladly to give you the kingdom.
Then I began trusting in our Father and the generosity of the people supporting this ministry. Every time I received a blessing, Satan was hot on my heels with his lies and deception to try and turn me away from the path the Lord had given me. It went from financial crisis to medical crisis. Back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. There were times I honestly did not know if I was coming or going. The Lord has blessed me with so many mentors during this time. If He could not lead me in a particular instance, there was always someone to take my hand and stand with me against the darkness.
TO BE CONTINUED TOMORROW
You Are Not the Only One 